i was still hoping for a miracle to happen on Lizhen,
hoping that she will recover and wake up soon.
last night i still dreamt of her, watching Niunai tgt wif us,
telling us that she has alr recovered and i'm so happy for her.
It was only until this aftnoon when xy told me that her parents are intending to give up and let her go peacefully.
I wanted to make it up to her.
i didn't know that she was so sick after the last time i saw her.
i didn't know that she missed us so much and hope to meet up with us.
i didn't know that she was so bored at home.
i only knew all these until i read her blog that day, cause i've lost her blog link since long time ago.
i think i totally suck as a friend, i should have showed more care and concern.
During last yr June's tw trip,
we spent a week tgt.
she was the one who wake up the earliest every morning to wake me and karen up.
i still rmbr during our 6th day, she had alr changed and prepared to go for brkfast,
but both of us jus cldn't bother to wake up cos we were extremely exhausted.
so we continued slping and missed the brkfast provided by the hotel.
poor her went back to slp until we finally get up of bed.
We have went to most of EG's and Niu's events tgt,
and she was always the first to rch the venue without making any complain or feeling unhappy when she waited for us when we were late.
she is such a easy-going person, a very nice friend.
The last time i heard her voice was during the music monster festival.
we were contacting each other thru the phone,
but i didn't manage to see her as it was really crowded.
and the last time i contacted her was many months ago in msn asking abt her brain scan.
everything was still alright at that time.
but who knows..
It's really very hard for me to accept someone just so suddenly going to leave me.
why is life like this?
why do we have to leave one day?
this is a huge torture to me, to everyone.
Every day is a gift from god,
and tmr is definitely not promised.
I still do hope for a miracle to happen, pls..
